Mohabbat aur Kahani: Saleem Kausar

I was lucky to attend a live mushaira recently after quite a long time. The feeling of an interactive mushaira is quite amazing. Saleem Kausar was the last poet of the evening and recited some real gems. Here's a clip of the last two verses of his most famous ghazal: 

But what really caught my attention was his "Mohabbat aur Kahaani", which I couldn't record, but found in a raw video elsewhere, here: 

"Tumhein kaisay bataaein hum,
Mohabbat aur Kahaani mein koi rishtaa nahi hota,
Kahaani mein to hum waapas bhi aate hain
Mohabbat mein palatne ka koi rastaa nahi hota...
...
Kahaani ko kai kirdaar mil jul kar kahin aage chalaate hain,
Mohabbat apne kirdaaron ko khud aage barhaati hai..."

Naseeb

Tere dard mein bhi qareeb nahi,
Aaj itna bhi naseeb nahi.

[by Siyaah]

Ek hi Siyaahi

Wahi kehne lage deewaana jab se
Kya shikwa kare koi baaqi sab se

Hai kaisi wafaa ye aakhir tujhse
Hun bewafaa jaise duniya se jab se

Barson mein tumhe dekha to samjha
Kis toofaan ko tha thaame kab se

Kya maangun aakhir ab tujhse
Wo chand din hi geraan hain kab se
[geraan=heavy]

Aaj tumhe sach bola to laga yun
Sab jhooth tha umr bhar baaqi sab se

Koi manzil hi humein raas na aayi
Tum raah mein saath rahe na jab se

Har taabeer adhoori hi lagi
Tum hi khwaab the awwal sab se

Har dard mein yaad tumhi kyun aaye
Zakhm tum hi the gehre sab se

Ye kaisi tishnagi tere liye thi
Barhdti hi jaae mile ho jab se

Hai zyaada khushi ke aaj mile hain
Ya ghum ke bichhde hain hum kab se

Sab de dun tujh ko waapas le lun
Kaise karun ye sauda rab se

Roz tumhe socha to nahi par
Sab ghum aur khushi hain tere kab se

Ab phir se kya maangun main rab se
Tum to mere hi rahe ho tab se

Koi dard hi baaqi nahi daaman mein
Wo ghar waapas aaye hain jab se

Hai gunaah to kyun sohbat mein teri
Raabta bardhta jae hai rab se

Sab ek hi Siyaahi se likh daale
Aaghaaz-e-ashaar hua tumse jab se.


[By Siyaah]

Sukoon

Koi sukoon mil hi nahi sakta;
Bas is hi baat se sukoon hai ab.

[by Siyaah]

Ab waapas jaane do

Ab waapas jaane do
Dard mein waapas jaane do

Main kho sa gaya hoon khushion mein
Mujhe dard mein waapas jaane do

Main ab aadi hoon tanhai ka
Sab chhupaane ka, chup rahne ka,
Sab kuchh keh kar sab logon se
Kuchh bhi na kehne ka

Main kaise jiyunga tumse sab kuchh keh kar
Kehna bhi nahi aata hai ab to
Kaha hi nahi kisi se jo umr bhar
Kaise kahunga
Kehta bhi hoon to lagta hai
Kuchh keh hi nahi paa raha hoon jaise
Kuchh ghalat sa ho raha hai jaise
Koi yaad kisi baat ke kehne se
Kahin chhoo na jaae, bigard na jaae
Wo tasweeren dhundli zaroor hain ab
Par gehri bhi hain, dar lagta hai
Kuchh mit naa jaae, hil naa jaae

Main aadi nahin hoon yaadon ko
Kisi se kehne sunne ka
Tumse bhi nahi
Tumse to bilkul hi nahi
Tumhi to wo tasweer ho
Kahin hil naa jao, bigard na jao
Saalon ki mehnat se yaad rakha hai
Ab aise kaise kho doon tumko
Bas tumhare mil jaane se
Wo tum to hamesha se mere saath ho
Aur tum to abhi aaye ho waapas
Kuchh sabr karo
Saans lene do
Kuchh sochne do
Kuchh sehne do
Kuchh dar ko sambhaal lene do
Kuchh muafi maang lene do
Kuchh rehne do
Kuchh to rehne do

Ab mujhse hi tum khud ko kyun
Chheenne aaye ho
Kyun ye zulm mujhpar karne aaye ho
Main toot jaunga
Is tarah ke kuchh bhi nahi reh jaunga
Na tanha aur na saath tumhare
Nahi
Mujhe jaane do
Dard mein waapas jaane do

Wo dard hi humara bandhan hai ab
barson se wahi hai, kuchh aur nahi hai
Kis sukoon se jeeta tha main dard main
Koi fikr hi nahi thi kuchh khone ki
Jo kuchh khona tha kabka kho chuka tha
Tumse bichhardna to kabka ho chuka tha
Kis kis tarah se seekha sambhalna
Ek zindagi guzaar ke seekha tha jeena
Ab kya karunga
Tum phir jaoge
Har koi to kabhi jaata hi hai na
Tumne hi kaha hai
Kyun aa kar kaha hai
Kyun daraa kar kaha hai
Kya chhahte ho aakhir
Kuchh jaante hi nahi ho
Mujhe jaante hi nahi ho
Mere apne dard
Aur tumhara dard
Sab ek hue kabse
Ab na poochho
Kya ye kya wo hai
Sab ek hi hai
Sab dard hi hai
Kuchh aur mujhe
Maloom hi nahi hai
Waapas jaane do
Paas na aane do
Mujhe sambhaal lo
Door hi rakho
Khud se door
Khushion se door
Naye dard se door
Wo dard purane hi kaafi hain
Unko to main khoob jaanta hoon ab
Wo aur nahi satayenge mujhe
Sehla sehla ke sulaayenge mujhe
So jaane do
Phir muaf karo
Is baar bhi mujhko jaane do
Abhi jaane do
Abhi bhi kuchh bigrda nahi hai
Main shayad kuchh samjha hi nahi hoon
Ke tum laute ho
Ya khwabon mein hoon
Ab bhi shayad bach jaun
Der na ho jaane do
Fauran jaana hai
Ek ek pal ka dard
Ek sadi ki tarah peechha karega
Ye jaanta hoon- tab bhi to yahi sab ek baar hua tha
Ek pal bhi na zaaya karne do
Jaane do
Mujhe fauran waapas jaane do
Dard mein waapas jaane do.

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By Siyaah.
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A 'stream of consciousness' nazm...could not stop it once it started forming mentally...posting unedited. Somewhat different from my usual attempts which are generally in the ghazal style...this is more in the modern nazm style, I guess...